All along it was me........IT WAS ME.......Oh my God.....!!!!
It was me who has changed over the time. And I have the problem with the relationship now that it is not like what it was when it started. Looking at myself, I am shocked to see that I have changed so much. It is of course the other person has also changed and hence the relationship has been affected over time.
But, he is not the only one to blame it is equally me or probably more of me who should be blamed for all the loss.
I always knew he runs away at the earliest possible moment citing excuse as lame as anything but I should have hold on. I knew he has a problem expressing his love. I knew he is not good at overcoming obstacles and that's when he shoves me away so that it doesn't hurt not knowing it hurts a lot more when he does that to me.
With the passage of time I started hiding my feelings from him about how good or miserable I actually feel at a certain point in time. How I love him like crazy and moreover I miss him everyday, every night, every moment when he is not with me. I stopped telling him how I keep thinking of the time we spent together. I stopped doing all this because I thought he doesn't have the time for me now or he has other priorities or he doesn't care or most hurtful he has stopped loving me.
I was not the same person when we met. I was the person who always knew what I want and I made sure that I get it of course not by hurting others. I used to ask for what I want. I was straight forward. I used to express my feelings to him without beating about the bush. And most importantly I used to fight for what I wanted.
And now I will fight. I will fight for his love, for our love. I want his attention and I'll get his attention. Even if it means breaking down the window panes which he has shut just to avoid me. I will fight for what we share because it is precious enough to save and cherish for the lifetime.
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